It's Fitness Friday - 2 weeks in a row, how's that for disciplined? I spent quite a bit of undisciplined time last week searching for great pictures of women working out. Here's one of my favorites...
Today, Pam and I worked out with Alex at Fitness Together. I nearly died at least 3 times. Alex is a 22 yr old superstar trainer, very nice, but extremely tough and disciplined. Hmmm. Seems to be a theme developing here. Discipline, or lack thereof, is something that I struggle with and have struggled with for about 42 years, maybe longer. I have an artistic, self-willed nature and I allow myself to get caught up in everything except what I'm supposed to be doing. And this transfers to all areas of life, not just fitness. I have the best of intentions, but it seems that life goes buy in a blurry, undefined, organic whirlwind of activity. At the end of the day, most things on my "list" are nearly accomplished, yet I and others closest to me most likely paid a high price, i.e., stress, anxiety, running late, running in circles, short tempers, etc.
I've realized that my lack of discipline has shaped me into a "skip the journey" kind of person. A person who lives life at a frantic pace, can't be bothered with the day to day details and is ready to skip to the happy ending. Quickly. And that's not the kind of person I want to be. It's not the kind of person God created me to be. I've bought into the instant gratification lie. And the take shortcuts lie. And the "you can always go back and do it tomorrow" lie. There is so much life to be lived in the day to day part of my journey. Like making a meal for the family and actually enjoying the creative, multi-sensory side of cooking. Like truly listening while my sons talk to me, watching their gestures and listening to the inflections in their now grown-up voices, instead of waiting for the bottom line summary sentence. Like waiting patiently in line at the grocery store or Starbucks and soaking in the sights and sounds and smells. A disciplined life will allow me to live a more well-rounded, enjoyable, "dig your toes into the sand, close your eyes and breathe in the smell of the ocean" kind of life. That's what I want. More than anything.
